I Know Who Is The Man In My Dream Now

son, this one is not as handsome as you. u see it looks so Dump!!!

The man in my dream is my late kitten son zaizai. He love to grip softly on my right arm to sleep. The feeling, yes, it is the mother and son feeling. That is the human form of him. The first time I saw him in human form was 3 days I adopted him. He refused to eat the kitten food, we fought, I beat his backside. He was very sad and angry. That night I dream I was lost on a long bridge. Is very foggy, I walk till I was very tired, then I saw a clinic, there was a tall young man, fair and thin, with soft hair leading against the pillar outside the clinic, the clinic has Chinese names too. I walk towards him for direction, he saw me and hug me and called me, “MaMa, MaMa…” non stop. I told him he is only a few younger than me, how can I be his mother? He replied, “You are my mama…”, then I heard “ma…ma…” non-stop in husky voice. I open my eyes, there zaizai is using the same kind of eyes like the pale young man in white coat and long sleeve looking at me. Yes, close relationship feeling. It is mama and son feeling. He is tan now, must had suffered a lot, no food to eat. Luminous stars is his favorite things, we pasted the whole studio with luminous stars and moons.


“Sorry son, mama promised to find a good father for you, but mama is still single after so many years. Mama is happy than anything to know that you are back, you had come a long way, mama can’t find you even mama went to Utah. U say in my dream to find you in white white place, mama really tried my best. Son, you ask the genie to leave and you take over izzit? Mama know you too well. dear son, at year 2008 December, mama saw a young boy in orange tee shirt, I like him, in my mind was this boy may be a good buddy for my son, but my son was gone. Now you are back, but mama can’t find this new friend for you. Son you are like mama, no friends. How I wish I can meet the boy again. Mama tomorrow go to buy new handphone, mama go to takashimay branch but I don’t have nhg card, no discount. Of only one nhg angel can appear to help me to signup for cheaper rates. This time zaizai no phone to walki with mama. Mama will bring you out to show you where is Orchard road. Remember mama always tell you, better than Beverly hills? There is an uncle in mama’s mind, but mama cannot get close to him in his office. Mama like to show you this uncle, but mama has no photo of his. He is the only man mama can’t take eyes from him. Of coz, zaizai too, but zaizai is different. Till now, son u are still the only baby mama had carried in arms. tomorrow mama will bring you out. or maybe we are lucky as we may meet the uncle at the singtel shop. it won’t happen. Sometime mama is making wishful thoughts like, will the uncle call mama? If the uncle call, mama let you talk to him? As a kitten you cannot talk except call “ma…ma…” when we are talking on walki, as human form you like to talk to mama. My love, My son, zaizai.”

"Ahhh…u r back, u drop my fake nails huh… son? This is the pack we bought from the Dollar Tree Store at Rowland heights. Mama did not throw it even I don’ use, u ask mama buy one right? Middle in the rack also can drop, u are telling me u are back right. I was worried when I know you are out, as your limb was fractured as mama threw u off the bed in nightmare. Are you hungry, sleep, wait mama think of something to feed you. Grandma cook 血鱼, tuna, not the type we had for our usual breakfast. If you are free, then u go find the uncle for mama, make sure he is safe and happy? Don’t scare the uncle wait he cannot sleep well. Grandma saw uncle on wed and said he is thinner. That worried mama. Make sure he eats his food. Everytime only eat 果条汤. The uncle has many toys, go play his toys but don’t frighten him, grandpa threw away mama’s star wars. Maybe u can find the korkor, the korkor may live very near the ex-office mama work, then u play with the korkor okay?
Nextweek grandpa grandma go genting, mama make some cookie cute cute one for you, actually want to make for the uncle for his birthday, but I am afraid that will create more trouble for him.
Love you my son,
Mama”