My Son Went To School

My son went to school this morning. But I don’t know where. According to my “readings” it is Somewhere New. Not even PAP. Yap! I remember he said in my dream when I ill and was back here that he want to study. He did not have breakfast and went out to school. As a mother I must make breakfast for him. the heaven says, I only can feed him at nighttime. I think heaven saints are also very scare of my this emperor son. Very familiar attitude. Like mother like son. Don’t tell me he will find a father like him? Then will be whole family, like parents, like son. Then we go out, the family attitude is always
”他们于我们格格不入”???

My main concern is where is my son, which school it is? Again “single-mother” worry is back to me. I don’t understand why those aunties cannot take care of their children well when their children can talk, and my son had never “MEOW” in his 14 months of his kitten life other than “MA…MA…”, there are somemore, very naughty, mama want to “pa” he will, “Ma….Mai…mai…Pa”, he will give that kind of pleading gesture with 2 palms cupped together and that kind of angelic eyes with weeping tears. Some times too late, mama pa pa pa backside. How old is my son now? 27 april 2002, oh my son is 8 years old, primary two. I wonder he is also in SAP school like me? Just now after 10am he had eaten food, that is like recess time, this morning 850am he was very hungry. I hope he is in a good school with good food too. My son will score 298 for PSLE, but unknown by MOE. This kind of mother. Siao one! Last night I wonder did he know that he has a head of hospital uncle w in the other world. my angel form son is like an ex-GP. No wonder when I was ill he will refused to go with my friends for temporary care and don’t eat but lay beside me, hear my breathing and call me till I finally open my eyes, he will nob his head and, “hummm…” then cling onto my right arms. As a way to comfort me and I had a message in my mind was” ma don’t send me away, I want to be with you. I can’t leave you, I am your son.” We both weep. That kind of single-mother life, sad, but we were happy. His genie form, that is the one I had seen, with kitten head and limbs and walk like a boy with nice tee shirt and shorts and suspenders. The last time I saw his that form was, the day he was put to sleep without my knowledge, I was very ill on bed, he opened my door in this room, point to me fuming and scream in mandarin,
“妈! 你骗我! 你为什么不回来? 你不要我! 我恨你!!!”
3 days before his death he open my door, and hop happily and request
“妈妈! 我刚才在对面看到很多哥哥姐姐去上课, 妈我要读书!”
“娃, 你是猫, 学校不收你!”
“妈,我要读书! 我要读书! 我要读书!...”
Then I did not know the kindergarden of baby brother is still there. I went down that day and OH the school is there. Just now I was concerned that I wanted to find which school and go to fetch him after school. I was told he will be back after school at 2. I saved 5 pcs Chinese 腊肠from my 抄饭 for him. I don’t say I am a good mother, but at least I tried my best. But how can those mothers who go through the pregnancy period and neglect their children???

Oh Mind! He want a father because students 笑他没爸爸? So by filling up his name as Zenus Leo will make him a laughing stock in school. Where can I find a father for him. And will the father let him bear his surname? If only a father will come to help my son.

“All Saints in the Heaven,
Please hear my plead,
Please find my son a good father as soon as possible and I will grateful from my deepest heart.
Can you send a father to me as soon as possible?
I don’t want my son to be humiliated.
Rest assure I will try my best to be a good wife,
But the man you send must stay faithful to me for the rest of his life.
Amen!”